Nightmare.

Salam.

I never want to make this post. Somehow, I felt bad to keep this without letting it go.  Those who read the notes will know the feelings. Sad, terrible, speechless all mixed up. Aku tak mau cakap pasal orang lain la, sebab masing masing ade pandangan dorang sendiri. Tapi aku takkan komen pasal tindakan abang abang. They have rights and reasons to do so.

So abang abang,

I just wanna thanks you guys for taking really really good care of me all this time. Even me myself didn’t care of my own like you guys did. Bukan niat nak buat sedih sedih, tapi memang sedih pon. Hehe. Meeting and knowing both of you was like a priceless gift. Sometimes I said to myself, was I dreaming? Macam mane aku boleh dapat satu lagi keluarga besar yang sangat sangat aku sayang. Tambah pulak tu dua orang abang yang giler punye baik hati. Sorry to say this abang abang, tapi kadang kadang orang pernah pikir, diorang berdua ni tak dok kerje ke ha? Duduk care ke budak budak ni sokmo, lepak la, gi ambik hantor la. But now, I seem to know why you guys done all that. Tapi sedor dok sedor pun orang lambat doh kan abang abang? Distance and time really make me understand what appreciation is. Abang abang cume nak kitorang hargai abang abang, tapi kitorang ni betol betol sibuk dengan diri sendiri la konon sampai tak paham sume tu. No, not kitorang but me,myself.

Bile jadi this unexpected thing, mende pertame yang orang ingat mase zaman sekoloh. Rase macam nok sekoloh balik je, sebab time tu lah orang rase dekat je dengan abang abang. Petang petang lepak dengan abang abang sampai kene maroh sebab dok duduk rumoh lansung. Hehe, weekend pulok lepak lagi walaupun niat lepak tu sebab nok study, tapi main jugok yang jadinye.  Dok kira whatever happen, manusia pertame dan kedua yang orang nok cerite adalah abang abang berdua. Mende kurang molek yang orang buat abang abang akan tegur, mende baik yang orang buat abang abang akan sokong. Mungkin kalau depan depan orang terime pandangan abang abang secare main main. Tapi bila duduk balik sorang sorang, I will recall back setiap yang abang abang kabo dan sumenye memang betol. Yeah, both of you ade banyak giler pengalaman berbanding orang kan. Ehehe. *Salute salute*

Ouh, bahagian menganjing menganjing tu pulok. Banyok dose orang kan, hahaha. Ehhh,abang abang pun banyok gok ngajing orang, ski dok puas hati kan. Hahhaa. Ok, what else to say? Hmm.. banyok lagi nih. Ahaah, abang ade kate, takdok mende pun yang beruboh lepas jadi mende ni. Well, you are bad at lying huh? A lot of things do change, dear brothers. Tapi as you guys said, semua tu perubahan yang baik. I’ll take that positively. J Abang abang, I have to admit this one thing. It’s an embrassing thing to say, tapi ngaku jelah eh. Haahaa, I always want to be the most special adek among others to you guys. Macam pelik aje kan kan? Hehe. But that’s a fact. Maybe you guys would say “nampok benor menipu”, tapi this time you guys kene percaye eh. Betoi betoi nih. Ok, habis situ je la, malu eden mau ceghite panjang panjang. Ahahaha, lawok weh. Abang abang, I have to end this here. Next time kalau dapat respon baik orang sambung lagi, hahaha. Ingat telemovie ke ape?

Orait, lastly THANK YOU SO SO SO MUCH to both of you ye for every single thing and love also your care towards me. *sobsobsob* Both of you are always my abangs.

                                    Aku adikmu

                                    Dan engkau abang

                                    Ku amat merindui kamu, yea yeah.  

                                                                                                Pagi yang gelap.

                           By: Hujan

Salam.

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